curious?

salam Ramadhan.

at the first place,,it wasn't me myself that realised my lymph nodes can be big enough which can be seen by people around me. My cousin was the person who told me that there's something on my right neck.Then only I realised bout it, and I told my mom..knowing my mom,when she palpated my neck,I know that there's something going on her head which can be seen through her expression,but she'll hold it.

kene buat biopsy ni...the first thing came out from her mouth.

when you are a medical student,nothing else can help you but you'll be so curious and eager to know what is biopsy. so i google it out..this happens bout 3 months ago.cant really remember.so this is what I understand from the word 'biopsy'.

biopsy involved the removal of tissues or cell for examination to see any precense of disease.it can be GIT biopsy,lung,liver etc etc including lymph node. example of conditions that can be identified are cancer and any inflammatory conditions. I was like oh! cancer..

the next few days...my mom said
ntah2 iman ade TB kot..

so I google it. slalu dengar but when somebody told u that u might have it,,i think everybody will automatically go around to find out bout it. the same goes to me..

I read on wiki and medscape bout TB. and if u guys google it too, its there bout mantoux test . so i read bout them in detail. but, i never told anybody everything that I hv read,how i feel bout it,what do I think bout it..including my mom till i told u guys yesterday on my previous post.

as time goes by..
Dr Lo' Lo' died because of lung and bone cancer (if I'm not mistaken), another fren of my mom died because of breast cancer and last two weeks another one died because of lung cancer..
my mom told me..iman jgn lupe anti-oxidant and supplement yg mama suruh mkn. skrg ni cancer xde ubat yang btul2 bole rawat dy unless u try to prevent it from now.

yesterday,when the nurse gave me the Mantoux test, she told me that bla bla bla blaaaa bla bla bout it. oh! the same as what I've read before..but I'm not satisfied. I want to hear anything or everything from my mom herself.so I kept asking her when we had a supper late at night after terawih yesterday.

Mantoux test yg iman kene cucuk td tu, nti dy akn react dgn ur body. so dkt tmpt kene cucuk tu, the palpable hardened area yg ade after 3 days will be measured. if it is +ve,,u might hv a tb,or any infections,or chronic internal inflammation or even cancer. phm? tp tuk lebih tw lg what are the disease,u have to do the biopsy. the tissue tu nanti kte tgk laa tb ke ape. so skarang ni..u have to take the antibiotic for a week,if ur lymph nodes tu mengecik,maybe its nothing really serious,if not ade something tak kene laaa kot. and it depends on your mantoux test tu jugak.

so dis is what I want to hear. I know that she really dont want to say anything related to cancer. and of course I didn't expect her to say something like..'iman nyer lymph node tu membesar ntah2 ade cancer...' knn?

so now, I 'm on an antibiotic to see if the lymph nodes can get smaller and disappear so iA its actually just a naughty big lymph nodes. hehe insyaAllah!

but I am confident that I am healthy and normal as I used to be and iA always pray for that. doa banyak2 utk dri sndri, everybody and million of thanks to all the readers and frens yg doakan saya. I'll pray for you too. :)

ps: maybe da ade yg stat blik kampung esok,slmt pulang ke kampung,hati2 di jln raya.